Rabo Karabekian

• I just finished the novel Bluebeard by Kurt Vonnegut; profoundly good. I really enjoyed it. I read the last 186 pages of it tonight, in fact.

• The new MCA banner at the east entrance on Poplar Ave. features a youngish man (whom I have come to find out is named Amel). He looks exactly like a friend of mine who killed himself when I was fourteen. I don't take that entrance too much anymore.

• I leave the balcony door unlocked so that Adam can come in throughout the day. I think it's kind of symbolic. Maybe I'm waiting for not only him, but someone else as well. Maybe I should stop reading Kurt Vonnegut books.

• To misquote Sam Cooke, "It's Friday night, and I ain't got nobody."

• And to correctly quote Charles Darwin, "It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."

It is necessary to uphold the appearance of the law, especially when it's being broken.

This tea tastes like shit,

my coffee is worse;

At least I'm not dead in the back of a hearse.

I'm in a odd mood, and I'm not sure why.

If Forrest Gump came on,

I know I would cry.

A nice little diddy for this evening. All I've been listening to lately is Bob Dylan. I didn't even like Bob Dylan. 'Highway 61 Revisited' has stayed in my car Walkman, only to be swapped out with 'Gossip in the Grain' every once and awhile.

One time my grandma told me, "It's better to fart and bear the shame, than not to fart, and bear the pain." One time my grandma also threw a Seagrams 7 bottle into the trashcan over her shoulder without looking.

The gas station guy didn't chat me up tonight like normal.

I've watched 'Gangs of New York' throughout the day; Daniel Day Lewis is a god amongst men. He uses the word 'excrementitious.'

Top 5 Favorite Things About Spring:

1. Dogwood Trees

2. Ice Cream Trucks

3. Dresses

4. My Straw Hat

5. Opening the Windows

"Do you have the slightest idea what a moral and ethical principle is, DO YOU? Has it ever occured to you what would happen to my future if I were to fail to live up to my responsibilities? Has it ever occured to you? HAS IT?"
-Jack Torrance, The Shining, 1980

This is a nice little quote to make me stop sitting in the park and wrap up my last three weeks of freshman year with head-nodding satisfaction. Not like Jack Torrance ended up very well, but that is besides the point.

Ways to Procrastinate and Feel Alright About It:
-Buy donuts at 3 PM
-Find a tree that is easily climbable
-Make bluegrass versions of Disney tunes
-Always have a pack of cheap smokes on you; do not keep count of cigarettes consumed
-Take off your shoes, leave them tied; Having to untie them will make you stay away
-Find a place that offers cheap food/beverages and enables loitering; have them keep refilling your coffee
-put color film in your camera instead of taking rolls of B&W for class; finish entire roll




My favorite epitaph I've ever seen said, "He never killed a man that did not need killing."


I've been real big into doo-wop for the past month or so. It's cheesy, cavity sweet, safe, but extraordinarily sad. I like to be crooned at.


I'm missing my home or really, my figurative home pretty bad as school winds down/up. I'm getting frantic and grumpy. I have a budget of $5.85 a day.

I hate Abstract Expressionism, and the more we speak about it the more I want to vomit.

Top 5 Favorite Foods Lately:
1. Quesadillas
2. Tempura Sweet Potato
3. Spinach
4. Coffee
5. Pall Malls