Queen Bee

I worked at a kitten and puppy adoption store when I was thirteen and fourteen. There was always this one type of dog that no one wanted, every two months or so, that got too big to stay in the raised puppy cages and had to be moved to the floor kennels. And there it would stay, save for a few vet visits. Ultimately, they would disappear somewhere. I feel like those dogs sometimes.


"I get sentimental over the music of the 90s. Deplorable, really. But I love it all. As far as I’m concerned the 90s was the best era for music ever, even the stuff that I loathed at the time, even the stuff that gave me stomach cramps."
— Rob Sheffield (Love Is a Mix Tape)

and

"When we die, we will turn into songs, and we will hear each other and remember each other."
— Rob Sheffield (Love Is a Mix Tape)


Rob Sheffield makes me sentimental.



Things that are alright:

1. I got three new records. As irresponsible as it may have been to spend $30 in the middle of the month, I always feel better about it after I sit down and listen to them. Maddox Brothers and Rose (a Capitol classics reissue; http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maddox_Brothers_and_Rose), The Flying Burrito Bros 'Live From Tokyo', and 'Underground Blues', a conglomeration of John Lee Hooker, Lightin' Hopkins, and Howlin' Wolf for the most part.

2. My photography professor said she really likes what I've been doing, and that I just need to be more confident in it. This was said at the 2011 graduates' BFA Opening Show. I only have two more years until that time comes.

3. The weather is enjoyable once again.

4. My brother and my two best friends visited me in Memphis this past weekend. Friday night we saw Gogol Bordello at Minglewood Hall, drank a lot of rum, and may have dabbled in some other things. I took a lot of weird long exposure photography, finished a roll, and promptly lost it. Saturday, we recovered in the park and Ross and I tried to fly a kite. Then we ate chili and tamales at Blues City Cafe and walked them off on Beale Street. There was a fleet of Top Gun Elvises. Then we spent the night in our friend's swanky Mud Island apartment and went drunk swimming. They all left Sunday morning, and I took a four hour nap with the windows open and the ceiling fan on.

5. I learned how to use a large format camera. I can't load the film into the processing tank to save my life.

6. I have acquired a roll of color 120 film that is six years expired; I am going to take portraits downtown tomorrow. I am excited.

7. My skin is relatively nice thanks to the weather and that drunk swimming.

8. Heidi got a bumpin' sound set-up in her itty bitty convertible and it's amazingly fun.



A wild pack of family dogs came runnin' through the yard
As my little sister played, the dogs took her away
- Modest Mouse